Welp! I'm heeeeere!
The long awaited Berklee Audition weekend has finally arrived and now that I am here, I'm not sure what to do with myself! There's no itinerary, no deadlines. I feel like the entire city is at my fingertips and it's a good feeling to say the very least.
God has really been blessing me the past couple of days before my initial flight out. Like even in the (seemingly) small things like covering my shifts for the weekend, providing ample finances and surrounding me with a level of support that I couldn't even dream of! I have so many people praying for me simply because they love me and believe in what God is doing in me! It's so humbling seeing the outpour of love and prayer all around me and I can't do anything but say thanks and direct it back to God because He's the one that matters in the end.
Tomorrow I will audition for the school I've been dreaming about going to for the past couple of years. But this isn't just any ol' audition.
This is a movement of faith.
The last time I was up here, I was a very different Steven. Just looking for a way to escape my problems and using Berklee as an excuse. I was so stressed and then have the entire thing fall apart at my feet was devastating.
Although I had told people "maybe next year!", inside I was angry. Furious at God for not giving me what I wanted and in the timing that I wanted it.
In retrospect, I can see God loved me and was probably just nodding His head as I shouted at Him. And I can see that He knew what was right. He broke me down because He knew I was building on the wrong foundation. He renewed my passion for music and introduced to me what it truly means to worship Him with all of my heart and ability. I gained knowledge and, finally, courage to apply again after my 'defeat'.
Now I'm here! There's little, if any, stress, a freeness that I can't begin to explain and a 'do your thing' attitude towards God haha He's going to rock my freakin world and I can't wait! I can't help but smile as I walk down these streets knowing that God has brought me back with a determination and a passion to carry His name wherever He may have me.
Please continue to pray for my safety and for my sense of direction lol Audition is tomorrow and I'm sure I'll post a 'post-audition' blog. :)
Till Next Time!
Isn't it awesome and humbling when God grows us to the point that we can look back on angry times and see His loving, faithful, guiding hand through it all?! What a blessing! So excited for all He has in store for you!
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